You know when people say that when you hang out with a person for a long period of time, you'll start to think, act and speak like that person... Today I found out that it's true. My best friend is my laptop, and I've started to behave and process my thoughts like one.
Maybe I should dress up as a computer this Halloween. How apt for my situation.
New blog banner! Elaine-chan must be happy now, that finally I've made a banner with her face on it. =D
And I did that instead of completing my individual assignment - how smart of me. I've got a feeling that tonight is not gonna be a good night. =(
Still, I hope Gossip Girl will cheer me up!
I'm totally sleep-deprived that I can't seem to open my eyes properly....
Absence of the mind
New ideas emerge every second,
pushing away memories of the past.
The intimate feeling of being belonged,
The grey orderly mess has replaced.
The mind wanders farther -
Dreading for the new dawn,
Yearning for the old beginning.
Problems have become bitter-sweet shame,
staining every bit of my leftover pride.
Welcome to this black world.
Splashing diamonds,
Flying cottons
The beginning is here
Take a step forward,
Leaving sorrows behind.
This is a new start.
Mistakes will not be erased,
Let them soak through our memories.
Life will go on, better than never.
No more pretention fools,
It's just the naked self.
This is the new beginning.
I need to save my laptop because all my precious graphic designs are saved in there. I hope I'll find time real soon to fix that.
I'm looking behind all the events that have happened this year. There's less than three months before it's time to come up with the yearly resolution. Who cares if I end up not realising them - at least I'll have a goal and a sense of anticipation for the coming year.
A lot of things have happened this year. I've grown up so much, I've come to tolerate all kinds of different characters, I've learnt to be outspoken when approaching people. Now when I look at myself in the mirror, I no longer see a teenager, but an adult. To be specific, an adult who refuse to grow up?
Perhaps my failure to come to terms with the fact that I've finally grown up and something within me has changed drastically have not sinked in. My soul still yearns for the carefree lifestyle I once followed. Is this a sign of gerascophobia? Nah, I just need time to adjust to the changes.
My life will continue to evolve and I shall adjust to the changes in my own pace. =)
What's the point of having the best of two worlds when you can't even deal with one?
