You know what, I've no idea why Facebook does not appeal me. Maybe I'm just too lazy to find out about its exciting features. Anyways, I'd rather be watching Bleach than be on Facebook.
This afternoon I attended the press launch for Youth.SG Feed Me campaign a.k.a LAi Chow & Stanley's baby (they've worked so hard for this!). I was the photographer! But, I think I did a pretty bad job with it. It has been so long since I held the Canon DSLR! Oh wells, I got over with it happily. I mean, I was enthusiastic about it and some veteran photographers were nudging me and all. "You should have gotten used to it by now," said Lai Chow. Yes, I have. Just that it has been a while that I've forgotten how it felt to be small.
Still, I had fun! It was nice to meet everyone again, and new random (strange) people and, I half-hearted left the two daddies back at The Heeren. LOL.
P.S. I saw a HOT MTV crew there - it's not Utt I'm referring (though he was there too). Yani thinks he is rude just because he asked her to "turn down the base volume" in a very impolite manner (i.e. without "please"). Utt made Yani day by chirpily thanking her after that 'rude' experience. Ah! That MTV guy is hot still.
After which, I joined Yani and Aini for Twilight. Which was packed with horribly cheesy lines and horrendous acting. I mean, what's with lines like "You are like my personal brand of heroin"?! Ah, it is supposedly meant for teenagers anyway - I've passed that stage long ago...that thought again.
And god, I am done with WISP! =)
It's tudung Nisha. LOL.
My cousins moved into a new house and they had a prayer session last Thursday. So, I had to wear tudung. Since recently my mother has been hinting to me to start wearing tudung, she took this opportunity make sure I look nice in tudung so that I will like being in tudung.
Well, though tudung does fit me, I am just not ready for this change in my life. Yet.
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This is one of those rare few Christmas when I got everything ready way before Dec 24. I'm done with all my Christmas shopping and have nearly given out all the presents. Just a few unlucky souls who will get theirs next week, hopefully. And I hope those people whom I've given out the presents to will wait till tomorrow to open them up.
The funny thing is that I haven't gotten any presents yet because some people just love the last minute mad rush to buy presents. Oh well, I'm patient. =)
P.S. I will not be anywhere near my laptop for the next three days.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I just feel like laughing out loud. I don't care even if the whole world can hear me laugh so happily and unglamly. Who cares, because I am so done and over with the cursed flash ad assignment. Oh. My. God. It feels like I just woke up from a really long nightmare. That sigh of relief - I like.
To celebrate this happiness, I shall spend tonight watching Oh! My Girl!!. Nighto-kun is in it! Lalalalalalalala~~
=D
"I've always been someone who cares about what others think about me. So, I tend to try my best to make them not hate me."
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You know what, I hate it when I can visualise the idea in my head but totally am lost in executing it. That's the state I am in now. Terrible, terrible, terrible. But, I've no choice. So I shall start work soon.
*Added videos by Sujith on Dec 24
Like after ages I'm done with Ethics essay. Seriously, why such heavy assignments for IS? Or maybe I was just being a perfectionist when I was doing it. Still, I don't feel very good about it (just remembered that I did not conclude the ethical dilemma properly. About 5% will be gone for that). But, I'm still glad I'm over with it. Partly because I had 2 pages of references. Ah! Hopefully that will score me the total research marks.
I'm almost done with Media Law assignment, thank goodness. I want nothing else to do with Media Law for the rest of the holiday, please. So, after chionging Ethics essay this afternoon in school (yeah, I was in school on a holiday. How loserish can it get?), it was a wacky time spent with Sam, Heathery, Sujith and Daryll. LOL, it can be so fun with these people, and I wish I can kidnap Heathery and Sujith and lock them up in my closet so that everytime I feel depress, I can just open the closet and laugh. They are just so funny! Every second okay. Or maybe like Heathery said, "Nisha, you laugh at everything!" And, Daryll loves giving those piercing long glare just because I called him gay for using some brand glitter butter cream. Yeah, his skin was slightly glitterish.
With Ethics done, now it's the flash advertisement, which I've yet to brainstorm idea for. Oh wells, it's the holiday so I shall take it slowww~ =)
P.S. James wants something that I so can never afford for Christmas, so I shall give him a fake one. Shhhh~
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Oh my god, and the videos that Sujith actually put up on Youtube. I think we were all high from happiness.
You know what? I don't care anymore, what my future lies.
And I totally don't care what is in store for you once you graduate.
And I absolutely don't care how your future is looking oh-so-bright.
And I bloody don't care that you've got the ten-years plan running.
That ten-years plan we did up together so diligently - how come only yours come true?
Well, I don't care anymore, my dear friend.
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It's funny, everywhere I go people I know are asking the same question: "So, what's after graduation?" It feels so similar to after 'O' levels, even after PSLE. Everyone expects me to lay out my future at an early age and follow it, but for the record, the future can be so unpredictable.
For instance, it wasn't my plan to drop to EM2 back in primary school; It wasn't my plan to get into a secondary school that wasn't even my choice in the first place; It wasn't my plan to NOT get into a triple science class; It wasn't my plan to do terribly in my prelims; It wasn't my plan to end up in Mass Communications when I was so rooted to the decision of getting into JJC. All my life, I've only been the second best. And the funny thing is that I know the reason why I am never the first, but I fail to change it.
"You are just too stubborn and arrogant," my mom put it out for me. I agree with her, but since she is the mom and I am the kid, I roll my eyes at her and instantaneously forget about my bad traits. Even worse, I say, "Well, everyone has bad qualities, and these are mine. Just live with it." What I don't know is that I can change it if I want to, but I never will because my bad traits are the culprit of me not changing.
I don't care if this is a post that will put my name under the list of names you label as pitiably pathetic; instead this is a revelation to me - a kind of hope that is suddenly shining bigger. At least now I understand myself better.
Here's something that preoccupied my mind the whole morning: http://en.akinator.com/#
It's so fun! But you can get tired of it after a few tries because it just stops predicting the right answers.
And Jun can make me smile even when my mom is nagging at me to get my ass off the sofa to complete the house chores I started. Awesome Jun.
Probably the best day of the holiday, which just started - I'm starting to think like William Lashner's fictional character Victor Carl: "Expecting the worst is always the best." So, presently I've the mindset that this kind of day will not appear again until I graduate (from the hell kingdom). Actually it's not so bad being there... (wait, let's not get there)
After what feels like eons, I met up with Sabby for lunch.
But, the initial plan wasn't that.
It was to:
1. head over beyond the causeway with the family,
2. watch a really good movie,
3. shop till night falls,
4. dine at the seafood restaurant near the beach,
5. and meet a handsome waiter who will serve me...
Okay, the last part is bullshit, but the probability was quite high okay.
But, the plan fell through because the Queen of the house complained about not feeling well. Of course, I spent the whole morning just throwing tantrums by trying to avoid her, which ended up with her blaming me for not waking up early (usually when we go to JB, we like it when our journey starts really early in the morning, like 8a.m. or so).
So while I was sulking away, I decided that I should not waste my time rotting at home and should go to National Library to start and complete the Ethics essay, which by the way is due tomorrow, while my parents were planning on heading to Liang Court to shop (whatever happened to "Not feeling well", Mother?). Just then, Sabby contacted me and we decided to meet up for lunch. And I changed my mind and decided to accompany the family to shop after meeting up Sab.
We played catch up - Sabby and me.
She said that Amirah thinks that "Nisha ran away from home" and Ros is mad at me for not keeping in touch for so long. And I blame a certain something/someone for this (i.e. school, assignment, project and anooying people).
As usual, I realise how much I miss being the secondary school kid I was, but it felt good that I have people who can make me feel the same way I felt before. We chatted about everything - secondary school friends/foe/mates, MI and the past/present/future at Swensen's while the waiteresses were trying to throw whatever hints in our direction to get us out of there.
I hope Sabby will stop thinking about that guy and move on really soon (i.e. get together with that NICE and SWEET guy before I hit on him!); I hope Amirah will stop thinking that I ran away from home; I hope I can meet up with Roslinda and the rest soon. =)
After the meet, I went to Marina Square to meet up with the family to shop, which was awesome. I felt energised after that, though I know I've got more shopping to do soon (i.e. Christmas presents - but this year's presents are for certain people. Gosh, I sound cold.)
It is great to shop with my family because 1. I can convince my dad to pay for at least 3/4 of what I purchase, 2. I can get second opinion from mom and 3. I can easily persuade my brother to carry the shopping bags.
We ended up at Al-Azhar at Bukit Timah for dinner (so far from that seafood restaurant I was looking forward to, but fair enough).
And today I'm left with having to complete whatever I didn't yesterday. But I shall not complain.
=)
P.S. I hope I will start on that Ethics essay real soon.
P.P.S. I'm rewatching Hana Yori Dango! Oh my god, the cuteness of Matsumoto Jun is so irresistible.
Oh dear, you saw through me -
my sensitivity, arrogance and public facade.
Only knowing after three weeks of our meet,
I can be quite vacuous, you should know too.
Oh you, understanding me must be quite a chore -
for this being is a world of its own.
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ARASHI's songs has its way to get into my heart and make me realise things I've never seen before. This is one such song: Boku ga boku no subete (Entirety of me)
What if, back then, I had chosen a slightly different future
I ask myself as I look through the shaking glass at the scenes I’ve gotten used to
Everyone has longings, everyone gets hurt, on the one path they chose
Cherishing the life we’re living
Lets overcome sadness, take one more step forward, just as you are
On this ownerless, nameless road
And again tomorrow, face our dreams, and worry, smile, laugh
The person I am right now is the entirety of me; That isn’t something that is going to change.
What if, back then, I could have been myself around you, instead of pretending to be someone else
When suddenly that feeling rises to the surface, although it’s painful, it’s precious
With ever person that you meet or part with, a layer is added to your memories
Tomorrows a new day! Live it [with the memories of yesterday]!
I'm going to embrace my life and my fate
Each one exists so that I can shine
Whether its spring, summer, fall, or winter, run, run, run, run!
The one thing I’m certain of is the path that I’ve created, and that isn’t something that is going to change.
So, the incomplete person that you are, weighed down by anxiety, having overcome the fleeting past to become who you are,
If you were to accept yourself the way you are
The future will open up [to you]; I hope this feeling will make it through you
From now on, I will believe in myself more
Lets overcome sadness, take one more step forward, just as you are
On this ownerless, nameless road
And again tomorrow, face our dreams, and worry, smile, laugh
There is only one thing I’m certain of
I want to hold on to my life, to my fate
Each one exists so that I can shine
Whether its spring, summer, fall, or winter, run, run, run, run!
The person I am right now is the entirety of me; That isn’t something that is going to change.
This is such a beautiful song. And Hwa Hee is hotness - he defines 'manliness'.
But, I'm pissed off and even this song is not helping. Oh wells. Every holiday starts off like this...I hate it that they start talking about something so exciting and abruptly put a stop to it - it doesn't make any sense. What's the point of starting all the talk then? And I'm labelled as the sensitive one.
Right, I am in the mood to accomplish many things, but certainly not the assignments that are blinding my sanity.
It is officially the start of the semester break! YAY! I'll try to block out the other side that diminishes this happiness (i.e. assignments)
And these are some of the stuff I'm suddenly inspired to achieve:
(a) New banner: maybe one that looks very Christmassy
(b) Icons of Miura, ARASHI and KAT-TUN: Found some great photo shoots and PV =D
(c) Complete Hunter x Hunter by the end of holiday!
(d) Watch Ryusei no Kizuna, Bloody Monday, Room of King and Innocent Love
(e) Make sure the video rental lady knows me by my first name again ;)
(f) Play catch-up with MANY people
(g) Complete the poems I started during the past two months
(h) Christmas pressie shopping!
And, I can't wait to ramble on and on about some random film I've watched or book I've read.
P.S. I am so sorry to a certain person for ranting non-stop about silly stuff last night. That person knows best that my life revolves around school. Ah, I'm a Loser (yes, with a capital 'L'). But, you know you love me to bits to stay annoyed for too long! =D
P.P.S. Jalyn, no one uses the word 'plethora' in their sms - you are weird. LOL.
