I feel like a 15-year-old boy who watched Jennifer's Body just for Megan Foxx. Dang! That movie has no depth in its storyline, seriously. It's like Twilight all over - minus the good plot Twilight had. But, Non-Mafia as company was good enough to make it enjoyable (plus some random Indian guys who laughed at the most silliest things made the movie more bearable). The musi
It's Paranormal Activity tonight, if Jake manages to get it. =)
I need a new iPod because my current one has no more space for all the new songs I've somehow managed to find. My hands are itching to buy some new albums because I need to inject some more pop music into my already-overdosed system. Music is life, seriously. Because I can't imagine my life without music.
Have I ever mentioned how Gavin DeGraw makes me reminisce of my childish dream? I'm not going to share my adolescent dream now, but I've to admit, hoping and believing in that dream has made me realise how beautiful life is. It's the same with DeGraw's songs. I've since grown out of those feelings and yearnings, but the remains of that unrealised wishes still lingers within - not daunting my ability, but to show how much I've grown up.
I've to say, though I complain a lot about my life, I've not yet regreted any path I've taken in my life. My life has never gone according to plan ever since I was little, but everything happens for a reason, doesn't it? I believe it with my heart. Each and every stage of my life have shaped me to become who I am now, and looking back, I feel proud of how I've turned out. Well, it's true that I can do better, but my life could've been worse than this.
And in every stage, music was there in my life. You can say, each and every song saved in my hard disks, mp3 and iPod have cheered me on and felt the emotions I felt in at least one part of my life. And if you asked me to delete all that songs now, you can probably regard me as half-dead. No wonders why I mourned for three whole days last year because my iPod screwed up and somehow more than a thousand songs vanished without trace. It took me a month to restore all those memories, and yet I feel asmall void in my heart, as if I've missed out something.
Somehow the mainstream songs nowadays have become music that I can only dance to, but not one that I can actually intensely listen to and make me spend hours just thinking about life, love and everything under the sun. Or maybe I've been listening to all the wrong songs recently...
Now, I really do need a trip down to HMV.
You know when people say that when you hang out with a person for a long period of time, you'll start to think, act and speak like that person... Today I found out that it's true. My best friend is my laptop, and I've started to behave and process my thoughts like one.
Maybe I should dress up as a computer this Halloween. How apt for my situation.
New blog banner! Elaine-chan must be happy now, that finally I've made a banner with her face on it. =D
And I did that instead of completing my individual assignment - how smart of me. I've got a feeling that tonight is not gonna be a good night. =(
Still, I hope Gossip Girl will cheer me up!
I'm totally sleep-deprived that I can't seem to open my eyes properly....
Absence of the mind
New ideas emerge every second,
pushing away memories of the past.
The intimate feeling of being belonged,
The grey orderly mess has replaced.
The mind wanders farther -
Dreading for the new dawn,
Yearning for the old beginning.
Problems have become bitter-sweet shame,
staining every bit of my leftover pride.
Welcome to this black world.
Splashing diamonds,
Flying cottons
The beginning is here
Take a step forward,
Leaving sorrows behind.
This is a new start.
Mistakes will not be erased,
Let them soak through our memories.
Life will go on, better than never.
No more pretention fools,
It's just the naked self.
This is the new beginning.
I need to save my laptop because all my precious graphic designs are saved in there. I hope I'll find time real soon to fix that.
I'm looking behind all the events that have happened this year. There's less than three months before it's time to come up with the yearly resolution. Who cares if I end up not realising them - at least I'll have a goal and a sense of anticipation for the coming year.
A lot of things have happened this year. I've grown up so much, I've come to tolerate all kinds of different characters, I've learnt to be outspoken when approaching people. Now when I look at myself in the mirror, I no longer see a teenager, but an adult. To be specific, an adult who refuse to grow up?
Perhaps my failure to come to terms with the fact that I've finally grown up and something within me has changed drastically have not sinked in. My soul still yearns for the carefree lifestyle I once followed. Is this a sign of gerascophobia? Nah, I just need time to adjust to the changes.
My life will continue to evolve and I shall adjust to the changes in my own pace. =)
What's the point of having the best of two worlds when you can't even deal with one?
I don't like the idea of not keeping track of Arashi's music career. So, do they have a new single? I've to get back to reading Tokyograph.
Arashi's Still... is the best song ever, which I'll never get sick and tired of. =)
The lost cat at the void deck is on it again -
helplessly screaming for help to deaf ears.
Even the loud Lady Gaga music can't seem to block off its plea for rescue.
What do you do when the person you hate the most calls out for help?
Stranded lonely in an unknown territory,
even the brightest sky is not warming its heart.
You know what I desperately need in my life now (other than a long holiday), is a DSLR, Adobe Photoshop and time. Especially time. The worst part is when I've time and I frantically try to do everything within that small amount of time. I start to prioritise every single thing - even to pick up the phone and have a small chat with my friend. Why can't all the wasted hours just return for once?
It's true, what Benjamin Franklin said: "Lost time is never found."
I Hope by FT Island - The lead vocal, Hong Gi, has a really good voice that can melt my heart.
I hope I don't have to do work at home ever again.
